Lost

I'm lost here without you, so much love to give but you hold me at arms length. What do I go with that sapping my strength? When did the passion die, and why??!

It just makes me cry...,feels like it's a goodbye...

What can I do to make you kiss me? That special one that only you have?

I used to be able to find you in the dark, and oh the Sparks! Please turn around and look at me, what do you see? Do you not know I long to just be held? 

We used to meld..,, as one flesh....now it seems like you have no desire for me, got us. You tell me you love me then question why I make myself look pretty for you, you make  it sound LIKE its a stupid thing to do...instead of telling me I'm still beautiful to you, so now I doubt all that I do. Not having you put your hands on my skin is a game you don't want to play anymore. 

My heart is so sore and I don't want to let you down so I've stopped asking. But I miss you and your touch and it leaves me starved for loving and touching you..God, the memories are torture, and I just can't be sure how you really feel. We used to be on the same page and it cannot just be age that keeps you away from me. Do you know the physical ache left behind; sometimes I think I'll lose my mind from wanting you, but I guess at this point it's time to just let you go..maybe someday you'll want to hold me again, just can't see when. I miss you my lover, my life, won't you let me be a true wife. Oh God, I'm crying out.... I need you now..., I need you now and I'm crying out!